Compilations of my thoughts!

  Having someone who does not need any tags to be with you is precious, someone who stay by your side no matter how worst situation comes, someone who is still holding your hands when everyone left you... He is never the one who expresses his love in words, his eyes speaks feelings his lips fear to say... Staring at me randomly, smiling at my nonsense talks, roasting me at every given chance and never leaving a moment to make me feel special.  Staring into his eyes is dangerous- It makes me loose my sanity... The way he smiles, my heart melts.  His way of expressing my importance in his life makes me admire him a lot. Falling in love with him was just like a fairy tale...  Plan was to have a good friendship, but when it turned into unconditional love is magical. There's no way I can ever express about him into mere words, My love for him is beyond any words can describe... Just the thought of having him near me, makes my soul feel peace.  Even if we don't exchan...

 You were aware right?! You did it on purpose right?  Noooooo!!! I didn't it was unintentional... I didn't did purposely...  You are lying!! You knew from start! You knew you will destroy him in the end but you did not stopped! You kept leading him on and on!!!  Noo I didn't!! I never wanted to destroy him! I just wanted to see him happy. Wanted to see him smiling.. noo!! I never wanted to ruin his life... But you did... You never wanted but you did.. It was all your fault from start...  You knew it, you are a curse!! A curse to everyone including you in their life... But still you never backed off... Nooo.... I just wanted to stay with him... A little longer... A little longer to see him smiling... A little longer to have a look how happiness looks on his face... A little longer to witness his success... Just a little longer... Look what your stubborn has caused him... Sadness... Loss... Guilt.... Regret... Pain... Emptiness...  Everything! Everything beca...

You deserve this! You deserve to be treated like this! This is what a person like you should get!  Look at yourself... What did you thought someone will cherish you? Oh really? A person like you? Be grateful that he at least tried to mess up with you!! No one's gonna put their efforts in you. You don't deserve it. Whatever is happening with you is what you deserve! Why don't you just die??! You thought that he will be with you forever? Dreaming of what huh? Wake up!! that's never gonna happen! He deserves much better! No matter what you try, nobody will love you. Nobody is going to put their efforts in you. Nobody is staying with you till the end. You are just a burden on everyone. They are with you because of pity, nothing else! Nobody cherishes you!  You deserve it. . . . Aahhhh!! She puts her both hands on the ears to stop these hurtful thoughts which was so loud... The tear streams running down her face, her eyes were bloody red and the breath was unstable, everythi...

Falling in love with someone is so beautiful.... When you constantly think about him, have the high urge to talk with him every now and then, no matter if you've any specific topic to talk about or not. Just talking with him feels nice. The craving of seeing him, even though there's no exchange any words... Just seeing that beautiful smile can be enough to make my heart be at peace.  He has a goddamn beautiful eyes which makes me stare at them shamelessly!! Whenever he scrunches his nose his eyes become small... And it always make my heart do a back flip. The way he smiles when I say something stupid... For that one smile I can make myself be stupid life long! That smile is beautiful... It's soothing... That smile makes me forget every negative thing happening...  He calls his dimples as defective muscles! But he has no idea how good they look on him...  Every feature of him is made to be praised ... When he closes his eyes and sleep during a video call... That peaceful e...

 My heart started to swell up in happiness with every step I took towards "The Marine drive". Cold breeze brushing with my skin, that tangling sensation all over the body, listening to 'I like you so much you'll know it' I had a soft smile.. This place always reminds me of you... It reminds me of all the good memories we shared...  You approaching me with a sweet smile on your face, one hand was holding mobile and other hand was holding your bag...  The close proximity between us, and your hands holding mine like it was just meant for me to hold... It was afternoon and I remember how beautiful your eyes were shining... Those brown eyes have always been an addiction to me!!! How easily it makes me lose my sanity... You had a smile on your face, which was enough proof that you are happy, you are happy being with me like this...  I was teasing you constantly... And you being the man of patience... Let me do everything I want...  That moment was beautiful and perfec...

Why he has to be so intimidating? The way I become nervous, The way I get freeze everytime he passes by me... It makes me laugh!! I was never like this... To get nervous in presence of anyone around me. But him.... He makes my heartbeat fast, my feets sticked to ground, sweats over my palm and nervousness easily visible on my face... The way he stares at me... I just wish if time could stop in that moment... And when he looks back everytime to see if I'm still there, this accelerates my heartbeat!! My cheeks turns red when anyone says his name... The happiness can be seen easily on my face... I make thousands of stupid reasons just to get a glance of him... And when he smiles back at me... The world around me stops... I've started day dreaming... Smiling unknowingly... And lost somewhere... And a bunch of stupids things I do for him...  I'm doomed!!!